in parallels; short film

if you put your
hand out in dreams
i promise i will hold it
& your weight in earth
will never bare cold alone
sand forever fills fingertips
the strings in my heart
travel kilometres to find
the footsteps you take
among the canopy
& i don’t need to see you
to know you are here
heart strings weave our bodies
separate in a most
grown & together way
supple like flowing water
which can never be gripped
or held as our own
in the palm of a heart
i can only feel you here now
between each breath
my sternum breaks
of lungs full of
a love so subtle
so earth shattering
& i will never walk
alone again

... prose from 'love & cigarettes' - for jess

a year of unraveling layers upon layers. a year of re-paving the foundations beneath my feet. a year of a new leaf. & finally i have made something that can at least begin to encapsulate the story i have most been trying to tell. as time has gone on, wounds have closed and reopened and torn again and again. & in all of it - all the beautiful mess - i have expanded enough to be able to hold it: the growth, the person i needed to become to tell the story, our story.

"in parallels" is coming to you soon. a short film about the way we grip to things, love, our external world. about trust, betrayal, and of the expansion which love - and the heart-wrenching hurt that almost always comes with it - offers us, if we are able to find the hidden silver linings. 

update life post coming soon now I've finished my study year [can i get a woohoo]. 

so much love

Jessi x